utk adik~

huk3...hati oh hati...runtun hati aku bila tgk org lain mnngis..nk aje aku kesat kan air mata si kecil tu... x sanggup melihat pnderitaan yg dialami...aku tgk depan2.. sedih tgk dye..x sangka Allah bg bdk tu dugaan sebesar ini mse kcik lgi...mse smpi umh tu aku tgk je bdk tu...sbb aku sedih.. cmpur kesian..sayu aku tgk muka dye...happy tnpa sebarang rse sedih... rupa nye adik tu, atok dye kwn ibu aku...1st time aku tgk knk2 mcm tu..b4 ni ad aku tgk kt tv je..tpi kli ni...dpn mata.. leher di tebuk lubang..bg sng kn dye bernafas... x leh ckp sbb xde dagu... nngs pn x kuar sore...cmne aku dgr dye nngs sbb mse tu cousin dye terlanggar tgn dye..aku mcm nk puk2 je cousin dye tpi nk wat cmne...dak kcik lgi...batuk pn ssah...mkn x lalu mulut...lalu salur tu... x dpt rse nikmat makanan... subahanaallah...Allah je tau perassan aku mse tu...sedih sgt tgk dye..aku tahan diri ni...kang org kte emosi plak...xpe2..aku tgk lgi...nenek dye pujuk dye mse nngs tu...knk2 cm ni mmg sensitif ckit..jiwa mudah terusik...bila nk balik...aku x lepas pndang mke adik tu...rse mcm nk peluk dye..n ckp..sbar ye dik...tpi dye bru 5 thun...x tau pe2.. lepas slm2 dgn mak adik tu nk nenek dye..msuk kete n kuar dri perkarangan umh tu...trus aku nngs dlm kete...sedeh...teringt lgu ni...aku x tau tajuk tpi aku tau lirik dye...cmni bunyi nye

SENYUM KU X SEGHAIRAH,
GERAK GAYA KU X SELINCAH,
MATAKU X SEAYU................

TIDAK KU MINTA LAHIR KE DUNIA,
TIDAK KU DUGA CACAT BEGINI,
BUKAN KU PINTA KASIH DAN MANJA,
BUKAN KU RAYU BANTU SIMPATI......

MAAF KAN WAHAI TEMAN,
KU MENUNMPANG SI SUDUT DUNIA,
MENCARI KETENANGAN........

semoga adik Akhir Iskandar Azrul Faizal tabah menghadapi hidup ini...akk mampu berdoa je... klau akk ad duet byk...akk hulur utk adik...

WORLD CUP

dmam piala dunia atau sng sbut FIFA...huhhuhu...musim ni mmg aku giler bola..aku x tau npe n byk team aku da tau..haha..n nme2 skli...sbb pe? sbb aku bosan..but seronok tgk bola ni...emosi..hohohoho..best...tgk2.. x sedar da kul 5 pagi...giler... SPAIN!!! aku skong spain... x ksah la klah ke mng..aku sokong spain...n 2nd portugal...huk3...best2...kecut perut jntung usus aku tgk bola...rse cm nk tlg sepak kan je pn ye...hahha...n penah 1 hari tu mmpi aku jdi pemain bola sepak...hahhaa...mmg x msuk akal...gile btol... spain...keep up a good play!! spain!!

DBSK

it's not your fault those hands are cold
clinging onto the wound of the past
afraid to love someone..
turning your back against
the true meaning of the story

the heart that is hugged
slowly melts like ice
to be loved by someone by anyone
its make live shine
like this

if it was me
i would make your heart onece again
warm with undying love

fate's play
even though it makes
your heart ache
when the tears end

a ray of lights
descends from the darkness
we can grasp it

we can feel
the fierce painful touch
of person's warmth

sorrow and loneliness
thats every person endures
searching for
a refuge to mend

yes, for you that place's here
don't worry don't, don't falter anymore
i will protect you

because it is a love
my love as beautiful
as it is miserable
don't be afraid
this beautiful
let you know my mind
beautiful time
you know it is ephemeral

let you know my love
to be loved by someone
by anyone
its makes life shine
like this

if it was me
i would make your heart onece again
warm with undying love

kerja di waktu cuti sem... (bosan giler)~

cuti sem ni mmg super bosan...aku pn x tau npe...bngun tdo...mkn...b4 tdo mkn...xtau la bpe kilo nk naik...hahaha..lantak la..jnji aku happy...aku g opis my lovely mummy download anime n video best2..hahha..sbb aku xde kje la nih...bosan giler kn...nk wat cmne...rutin harian...nk kuar mmber sume jauh...acc xde knderaan...smpi ari tu kuar sorg2...g shopping2..hahacm org giler dah...ari tu je.. n then skrng dok bz tgk anime...sume wat aku berada di awang2an.. ye la cte sume ye happy ending..aku ye bila tah nk happy ending...tngu la...jauh lgi nk pk bnde2 tu..huhuhuhu....credit to anime yg x wat aku bosan...huhuhuhuhu....

Kapok NITE d'uniten

a lot of experience from this event... ske sgt...leh happy kn diri...ilng kn stress...smbil2 hibur kan hati...hibur kan org....huhuhu...seronok...thnks gak kt amzar n zhaf yg sudi memberikan khidmat dok band kte "THE FUSION"..band baru lgi...hope next event leh join lgi...huhuhu... thnks KAPOK!!!! love u all.. n thnks gak to pihak penganjur Adam n Olei for this event...

cuti~~

yey~ abis exam...cuti kli ni byk mse nk di habiskan di rumah..n berjln2 n ad mission penting bersama kak angh ku...ingt ye misi kte...misi ke bulan..hua2... nk abis mse bersenang lenang...hik3...menanti kemunculan aku di serata malaysia...wah!! poyo jap...ingt nk pegi afrika...tgk2 duet..xsmpi pn 50 ringt malaysia...huhuhu...wat tket balik umh pn pas pegi je..mmg x balik la...pas ni kt umh pn jrng on9 sbb ad tb(telebesen)..tb tu sumber pertama klau kt umh...dok dpn tb dri kul 10 pgi smpi 10 pagi esk ye pn xpe.....nk astro~~ tb kt umh terbakar...kilat pnye psl..haha..tp nsib along da gnti...besar!! punyer!!! huk3..hope cuti kli ni seindah berada di kayangan....mkn tdo mkn tdo...boncit la!! hahaha..peduli ape aku boncit... HAPPY CUTI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WILL MISS SOMEONE AT MUADZAM SHAH...3 MINGGU T X JMPE AWK...waa~~ geli btol...hahhaha..bye~

juz only see it, will make me smile... :)

secret admire...so funny right...but thats the true..i dun know that, "do i have a SA?" i guess..no...hehehe...bcoz,.....(ada la kn) but...i was really like to look at someone everyday...if i didn't see him,when i see sign on9 on my fb or skype or anything that appear him..i will make me smile..but one day,seriously i crying bcoz of him...hahahha...so stupid right..i dun know..thts my 1st time experience of like some juz through my heart only..like or love?? mybe both.. but i know i cant get it... he's happy,i'm happy...even sometimes its hard to move him away from my life..my mind... thanks coz make me fall in love again bcoz b4 this i open my heart to anyone after 2 years suffering with a thing juz like HELL...huhuhuhu...thanks to u MR. J....<3>

ORANG PENTING DLM HIDUP SAYA!! :)

[ LOVE THEM SO MUCH~~ <3>

hopeless...

this song give me strength to face anything in my life... :)

Kanan dan kiri suramnya terasa
Cuba fahami apa yang terjadi
Tidak tertanggung beban di alami
Mengapa terjadinya sebegini
Tiada guna bertanya semua yang terjadi
Janjiku kepada diri hidup harus aku teruskan

Tuhan berikan sinar harapan
Hembuskan suatu kekuatan
Kumohon jauhkan dari kegelapan ini
Agar bisa aku teruskan

Walaupun lelah untuk menghadapi
Mengalah bukan jawapan yang ada
Walaupun berat segala di dada
Ku pasti mengharungi keakhirnya
Tiada guna bertanya semua yang terjadi
Janjiku kepada diri hidup harus aku teruskan

Tuhan berikan sinar harapan
Hembuskan suatu kekuatan
Ku hanya insan yang kerdil di dunia ini
Tunjukkan ku jalan hadapan

Genggami tangan ini oh teman
Disaat aku memerlukan
Dan bila waktu untuk melangkah pergi
Berikanlah daku cahaya tabahkan jiwaku oh tuhan

harus ku teruskan

untung aku sbb diri aku ni kuat wlaupn kdg2 tewas dgn keadaan skeliling...msti korg happy bila ad org syg korg..bleh dgr luahan hati korg...sharing everything kn..korg klau ad mslh cte kt spe??? byk sebab aku klau ad mslh x cte kt spe2...

1) ibu... ( aku xnk cte kt ibu..sbb ibu da byk ssah sbb fmly kite..byk sgt..aku nk bia dye bhagia..happy...sbb lme sgt dye merana dlu..ske sgt ibu happy cm skrng)

2) along.. ( dye da ad fmly sndiri...n dye la byk tlg aku dri segi stdy ni...thts enough 4 me...nasihat along n my lovely sis in law sgt2 berguna...)

3) angah.. ( lovely sis...adik xnk cte kt angah sbb angah bru nk mula kn hidup...x lme lgi nk kawin kn...nk ad fmly...so...xpe...adik fhm.. :) )

4) kwn2... (emmm...x sume org aku caye...aku x tau npe...sbb byk sgt yg wat aku hilng kepercayaan...aku x tau nk cte kt spe)

kdg2 aku lbih selesa cerita kt org yg aku x knal..xrpat... sbb tu aku diam...yg aku mmpu nngis sorg2..sbb tu je yg aku mmpu... thnks gak kt spe2 yg sudi kdg2 terlanjur dgr mls aku...nangis2..tu je aku tau..tpi at least aku settel kn sndiri...pe2 pn aku kne truskan jgk wlaupn pahit...pahit tu aku sorg je tau...kita x boleh nk wat sume org ske kte kn...eee...kn best klau happy je...penat la...penat.... spe je yg aku ad?? mybe ni cabaran tok aku hadapi idup yg lbih byk cabaran dri ni... btul x? xpe la xde org yg dekat ngn aku tok kongsi mslh...jnji aku x melatah bila ad mslh besar....bak kte ibu...adik kn kuat... yup... adik kuat... adik kuat sbb ibu bg itu... thnks ibu...

sory fwen 4 everthing

kwn...so sory if kdg ad yg aku wat wat korg terasa...kdg2 aku x join korg...aku byk mnyendiri... aku join aktiviti luar...x sllu ad kt umh...so sory...aku bkn sngaja..but i need to do it...aku terpaksa... aku wat sume tu sbb aku x nk pk mslh aku...aku join korg pn kdg2...cian roomate aku asyik lepak bilik sebelah...sbb aku sllu xde dlm bilik...so sory roomate... acc, mslh aku sgt2 membebankan aku smpi aku sndiri simpan bnde ni...aku x tau cte kt spe..aku xtau spe yg phm...aku x tau mne nk strt sbb aku xnk ssah kn org...tpi kdg2 keadaan aku diam mcm ni wat org amek kesempatan kt aku...aku penat sgt... aku msuk uniten ni pn diam2...ayah aku x pernah ske aku msuk cni...sbb dye nk aku jdi dokter...amek bio..jdi org2 sains...tpi aku x minat....aku msuk uniten ni diam2...aku amek coz yg aku minat sjak dlu lgi...aku ni jdi entrpneur...tu cta2 aku...tpi korg penah x ayah sendiri x penah bangga ngn korg? x penah bangga dgn pe yg korg nk wat...sllu memperkcil kn korg... pe korg rse... klau jmpe kwn2 dye...aku ni mcm ank yg xde pe2...mcm aku ni ape je...dye x pernah amek tau pe aku wat...bpe yuran...pe aku mkn kt cni...xpenah...nsib aku ad ibu n adik beradik yg sgt2 sokong aku...result aku x penah dye nk amek tau...wlaupn result aku tu boleh membangga kan dye..tpi dye x penah tau... xtau smpi bila...aku nk bukti kan kt ayah aku sndiri yg aku bkn loser!!! sbb tu aku rse tertekan sgt...sory kwn2.. kdg2 aku x tau nk ngadu kt spe..xtau nk cte kt spe...sbb aku tkt ssah kn org...untung korg klau spe2 ada org yg leh share prob...even ur love partner...hargai k...aku mntg tlg sgt...aku x mntk simpati tpi aku mntk tlg sgt2...tlg bntu wat kerja kita sme2...itu je..tlg k...kdg2 aku mmpu sbr2...aku pn manusia...kdg2 x mmpu nk sabar... tlg sgt2...mse depan kite...kte yg tntukan... bersyukr sbb korg diberi family yg memahami korg...aku mmpu jdi sebaik mngkin n consider sume bnde tok jdi sng..but plz...bg komitmen...juz dat...sory geng....so sory..